Friday, July 17, 2009


It's gone. Have you seen it? I know how to get it back but apparently it might not happen for awhile. What am I talking about you ask? I'm crazy aren't I?

My creative soul is the subject. I used to be very creative, artistic and all that nonsense. I was never any good at anything I did but in my own mind it was a great stress relief and sense of internal accomplishment (even if it sucked). I used to paint, draw, scrapbook and take moderately good pictures. I try to draw every now and again but it definitely wasn't my strong point. Scrap booking is extremely hard with Jordyn tearing all my stuff apart. I could do it while she napped but by the time I got everything laid out she would be awake and I would have one half assed page that I would probably throw away in a day or two cause I'm a psycho perfectionist when it comes to stuff like that.

So I've made a decision. I want, no need, a new camera. One with a lens and other fancy things. One that will allow me to take great pictures instead of taking shitty pictures that I have to try to salvage on Photoshop for hours. My road block? My husband. A good Nikon with a lens costs around $500-$1000. I'm not asking for something out of this world just a Nikon D40 with an 18-55mm lens. That's it. Everything else Photoshop can handle. So in my state of artistic panic I posted my old camera on Craigslist along with my Ipod. I'm willing to give up some things to raise money for this bitch. My husband doesn't understand my urgency which is funny coming from a man who has 2 bass guitars, one electric guitar, one acoustic guitar, a drum, a keyboard and a clarinet in the guest bedroom. Me getting a new camera is an excuse for him to get a fret less bass. Just another instrument to add to his arsenal when I have nothing. Doesn't seem fair but as long as I get my camera I'm OK with it. I already have three people inquiring about the Ipod and one scammer asking about the camera. Most people wouldn't see the point in NEEDING a camera so badly that it makes you cry but every time we do something or go somewhere I have ideas come flooding in and nothing to do about it. Oh yeah let me point and shoot with my tiny, stupid Nikon Coolpix Ashton Kutcher camera. My blackberry takes better pictures half the time. Fucking Ashton Kutcher.

I'm done now.


Nathan Pralle said...

Put it this way -- before I had this camera, I didn't know what I was missing, but I'm forever glad we have it now. (We have the D40 with the 15-55 and 55-200 lenses.) I'd probably sacrifice a good deal to get it back if it broke or otherwise, so I understand.

Kara said...

Yeah me and Landa had that conversation the other day. When I upgraded to the camera I have now I thought wow this is cool but now it's so annoying. I don't even take pictures as often as I used to because it's a pain in my ass to edit them!

Nathan Pralle said...

Whoops...18-55, not 15-55. Stupid me.

Yeah. Much nicer now.

If you have the dosh, though, drop it on this:

I'd love to, but...8 benjis is a bit right now.